no 2010 again please!!

finally i have finished my exam. BUT, i think i screwed my interview. Seriously, I have never felt so vulnerable. The first thought after I finished my interview was, really really bad. I was thinking, what am I doing? Why was it so fast? I mean the interview so short? and, I don't think I gave the marker a good impression at the beginning. Sis rang me in the afternoon during her lunch break and ask me whether my interview was ok. after talking and telling her what has happened, I suddenly cried, I just can't control my tears. It just kept flowing. Why is it my life in 2010 so sad??? I have been crying for so many times in 2010. the first time being my sister's relationship with her bf, then mom's operation, then my relationship with a guy, and the last problem being my study. to be honest, I HATE 2010. anyways, i still hope that i can pass all subjects, so that I will have a happy ending in 2010. Thank GOD, my mom is pretty healthy now, and my sis is pretty happy with her relationship now. That is why I always say "seek you shall find, and ask you shall receive". I really believe in God. Someone told me earlier this year that once He bring you to it, He WILL BRING TO THROUGH IT. I will always keep this in mind. The only thing I can do now is to pray for good result. God, please hear my prayer!

back to my relationship with that guy, I think it is a good idea to move out from this house next year. so that i won't see him again (at least i don't see him everyday). I really hate the way he treats me. anyways, i don't wanna cry because of him again! I reckon the best why to solve this problem is to keep him out of my life, but i know it is hard. I have been telling to myself about his shortcomings, but it just doesn't work. God, please help me!!!!

2010 is the most dramatic year in my life. I just don't want another 2010 in my life! and if it is possible, I would like to delete it from my memory!