no 2010 again please!!

finally i have finished my exam. BUT, i think i screwed my interview. Seriously, I have never felt so vulnerable. The first thought after I finished my interview was, really really bad. I was thinking, what am I doing? Why was it so fast? I mean the interview so short? and, I don't think I gave the marker a good impression at the beginning. Sis rang me in the afternoon during her lunch break and ask me whether my interview was ok. after talking and telling her what has happened, I suddenly cried, I just can't control my tears. It just kept flowing. Why is it my life in 2010 so sad??? I have been crying for so many times in 2010. the first time being my sister's relationship with her bf, then mom's operation, then my relationship with a guy, and the last problem being my study. to be honest, I HATE 2010. anyways, i still hope that i can pass all subjects, so that I will have a happy ending in 2010. Thank GOD, my mom is pretty healthy now, and my sis is pretty happy with her relationship now. That is why I always say "seek you shall find, and ask you shall receive". I really believe in God. Someone told me earlier this year that once He bring you to it, He WILL BRING TO THROUGH IT. I will always keep this in mind. The only thing I can do now is to pray for good result. God, please hear my prayer!

back to my relationship with that guy, I think it is a good idea to move out from this house next year. so that i won't see him again (at least i don't see him everyday). I really hate the way he treats me. anyways, i don't wanna cry because of him again! I reckon the best why to solve this problem is to keep him out of my life, but i know it is hard. I have been telling to myself about his shortcomings, but it just doesn't work. God, please help me!!!!

2010 is the most dramatic year in my life. I just don't want another 2010 in my life! and if it is possible, I would like to delete it from my memory!

one more to go!

done my first interview exam today. I was okay, I guess? hope that my definition for OKAY is the same with the marker's definition. There was one part which was very awkward. It started like this:

Dietitian: so what type of butter do u normally use? regular? salted or unsalted one?

Client: I love my butter! I must have it regular, and salted. I think I have cardiovascular disease also, not only Type 2 Diabetes. haha

Dietitian: er....hmm.....hahahahaha (star at the client, and then star at the marker...laughing like a stupid.)

then awkward silence....then luckily the client felt the awkwardness, then she quickly says,

Client: oh, I forgot to tell you that I have 2 glasses of wine every evening. I think this is a very important information for you, right?

Dietitian: oh, yes! I was just about to ask you this.

So, the conversation went on again. ARG!!!! i hate myself. after thinking again and again about the situation i have just said above, I was thinking why am I such a stupid pig!! I should have replied to the client that if she is worried about having cardiovascular disease, she has to consult her doctor!!! OMG!! I hate myself being so stupid!! I am sure my marks have been deducted from that stupid, awkward conversation.

Anyways, I have submitted an assignment this evening as well, which led to one more presentation to go!! the last assignment for the whole second semester! will be presenting on thursday. hope everything will turn up well.

off to bed, good night ppl!

P/S GOD, please hear my prayers!!!

turning into a vampire

it's 6pm now. another day wasted. Wednesday is ending soon. and i left one and a half day to finish an essay, which I haven't even started to do research on. I doubt that I can finish on time. but what to do? still have to vomit 3 pages out. yes, 3 pages. doesn't sound like a lot. BUT it is damn hard!! the question is about motivational theories and how it is related to foodservice. I HATE FOODSERVICE!! i think this unit drive all of the nutrition and dietetics students crazy. So, back to the 3 pages essay. We need to do 3 essays, 3 pages each. This time, I actually sent my essays to my dad and ask him help me with these three stupid essays. A lot of my seniors failed this unit. So, I asked my dad to help me. HOPE I CAN PASS 3rd YEAR SECOND SEM!! I WANT TO GO HOME!!!!! I MISS MY DAD, MY MOM, MY SISTERS, and MY NIECE and MY NEPHEW!!!

P/S I will be an aunt to another niece very soon. :) looking forward to seeing this new lil family members of mine!!

off to do the stupid essay. (room is super duper messy at the moment)

the days after

Couldn't sleep on the nights after that incident. the only good thing that makes me happy is, I lost 0.6kg. Isn't that great. Yes, just within a night. but still, yeah, the weather is like SHIT. It has been raining for almost 2 days. But this time, I'm clever. I wore leather jacket and leather boots, which means I won't get wet. AND, I did not need to walk to uni in this wet and cold morning. BECAUSE my sis and her bf dropped me at the front of the building where I have my lecture!!! HOW LUCKY I AM!!

Back to the case. I feel awkward when talking to both of them. Especially the guy. I don't feel like talking to him anymore. Hope this situation will end VERY SOON!! GOD, please help me! Please direct me and give me strength!

P/S My 预感 is pretty accurate this yr! (in prediction of others' love lives. LOL).

Off to lecture again. Sis is gonna send me to uni :)

9.10.2010

Today is 9.10.2010

This is the first time I blog.

Today (Saturday) is the first time I actually go to the uni computer lab just to do my assignment. (I have never done that in the past 3 and a half years)

But today, it is not my first time talking with my closest friend in Brisbane about the same issue, the same people. From my memory, in the last few times when this happened, the weather was just like today, rainy and gloomy.

Today, it is also not the first time I cried because of the same person, the same issue. I know I have promised someone and of course myself, that I will not cry again because of that person , BUT I just can't control myself. *say sorry to the "someone" and also myself*

So, I HATE rainy days and gloomy days. And I HATE McDonald's breakfast. I will never ever have Maccas breakfast again! they will just taste so YUCKY if i eat it again.